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Sorai by Nadin Amizah

Langit dan laut saling membantu
Mencipta awan hujan pun turun
Ketika dunia saling membantu
Lihat, cinta mana yang tak jadi satu?

Kau memang manusia sedikit kata
Bolehkah aku yang berbicara?
Kau memang manusia tak kasat rasa
Biar aku yang mengemban cinta

Awan dan alam saling bersentuh
Mencipta hangat, Kau pun tersenyum
Ketika itu kulihat syahdu
Lihat, hati mana yang tak akan jatuh

Kau memang manusia sedikit kata
Bolehkah aku yang berbicara?
Kau memang manusia tak kasat rasa
Biar aku yang mengemban cinta

Kau dan aku saling membantu
Membasuh hati yang pernah pilu
Mungkin akhirnya tak jadi satu
Namun bersorai pernah bertemu

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Always by Rex Orange County

Ooh-ooh
Yeah (ooh-ooh-ooh)

It’s hard to make yourself believe
That it’ll get better when you feel defeated
And carrying on is easier said than done
It took a while to see that I was in need of help from somebody else
But she keeps reminding me that I’m not the only one
And babe, I would have told you this was gonna happen
If I had know that it would
But now there’s less time and more things that I need to say
And I’m afraid

That there will always be a part of me that’s holding on
And still believes that everything is fine
And that I’m living a normal life
But until somebody sits me down
And tells me that I’m different now
I’ll always be the way I always am
Oh-oh

Ooh-ooh
Yeah (ooh-ooh-ooh)

My apologies, it’s such a shame
I never planned to feel this way
But the more that I try
The more I’m seeing the difference, I’m not gonna lie
And now I get to sit down
And I’m happy to admit now, I’m on my way
It seems I’m not invincible but I’m bored of the pain
And I need to explain

Yeah, there will always be a part of me that’s holding on
And still believes that everything is fine
And that I’m living a normal life
But until somebody sits me down
And tells me why I’m different now
I’ll always be the way I always am
Yeah, yeah

Ha-ha, woo

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It’s Not The Same Aymore by Rex Orange County

I’ll keep the pictures saved in a safe place
Wow, I look so weird here
My face has changed now
It’s a big shame
So many feelings, struggling to leave my mouth
And it’s not that rare for me to let myself down
In a big way
But I had enough time and I found enough reason to accept that

It’s not the same anymore
I lost the joy in my face
My life was simple before
I should be happy, of course
But things just got much harder
Now it’s just hard to ignore
It’s not the same anymore
It’s not the same anymore
It’s not the same, but it’s not a shame ’cause

I spend a long time putting up with people
Putting on my best face
It’s only normal when you stop things in the wrong way
It’s only four o’clock and still, it’s been a long day
I just wanna hit the hay
People knocking on me like every day
I’m tired of taking stress
If only there could be another way
I’m tired of feeling suppressed
And when they want me the most
I’m tired of acting like I care, but I do
And I can’t wait to hit the bed
But tomorrow makes me scared

‘Cause it’s not the same anymore
I lost the joy in my face
My life was simple before
I should be happy, of course (Of course)
But things just got much harder
Now it’s just hard to ignore
It’s not the same anymore (It’s not the same)
(It’s not the same)
(It’s not the same)
It’s not the same anymore (It’s not the same)
(It’s not the same)
(It’s not the same)

Oh-oh
(It’s not the same)
(It’s not the same)
(It’s not the same)
Oh-oh

I kept the feelings inside
I open up when shit gets built up this high
She makes it easy to cry
The words fall out of me and there’s no more disguise
I miss the days when I was someone else
I used to be so hungry
Right now, my stomach’s full as hell
And I’ve spent many months just hating on myself
I can’t keep wishing things will be different
Or leaving problems on the shelf
I wish I didn’t need to get help
But I do
But I do
Oh-oh-oh

I been so hard on myself, yeah
Even my family can tell
And they barely saw what I felt
I wouldn’t wish this on my enemy or anyone else

It’s not the same
(It’s not the same)
(It’s not the same)
It’s not the same as before
It’s not the same anymore
And it’s fine because

I’ve learned so much from before
Now I’m not short on advice
There’s no excuses at all
No point in feeling upset
Won’t take my place on the floor
I’ll stand up straight like I’m tall
It’s up to me, no one else
I’m doing this for myself
It’s not the same anymore
It’s better
It got better
It’s not the same anymore
It’s better
Yeah, yeah

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10/10 by Rex Orange County

I had to think about my oldest friends
Now, I no longer hang with them
And I can’t wait to be home again
I had a year that nearly sent me off the edge
I feel like a five, I can’t pretend
But if I get my shit together this year
Maybe I’ll be a ten

Help myself a little better
‘Cause it’s getting tirin’
And I can’t wait for the summer
Now, I’m gonna need a moment

I did it again, I did it again
No control over my emotions
One year on and I still can’t focus
I did it again, yeah
I did it, I did it again
Twelve rounds in, fightin’ solo
But nobody wins when it ends

We’ll be placin’ memories in frames
Invitin’ people ’round to stay
And always owning up to things, to things
‘Cause, after all, I guess it all depends upon
The people you choose and where you’re from
If so, I’ve been so lucky, so far, it’s outrageous
I won’t complain (No)

I’ll give myself a little credit
Since I dealt with all the pain
Yeah, I turned superhero
I’m comin’ in Bruce Wayne

Yeah, I did it again, I did it again
But this time I took control
And turned my shit ’round
Sometimes you gotta cut a bitch out
I’m livin’ again, yeah
I’m livin’, I’m livin’ again
(Yeah-ah, woah, yeah)

Na na-na-na na, na, na, na
Na na-na, na, na-na, na, na
Na-na, na-na-na-na, na, na-na-na, na

Now, I’m safe and sound where I belong
It took all my strength to carry on
And though it’s still hard work to find the words
I’m still gonna write this fuckin’ song
‘Cause, after all, I guess it all depends upon
The people you choose and where you’re from

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Every Way by Rex Orange County

I care about you, in every way I can
You know I’m troubled, but I know you can understand
I’m sorry for the strain
No one prepares you for the way in which things change
But you’ve been amazing, saw me through my darkest stage
And you always forgave me
And now you love me just the same

It means the most, I hope you know
And I hope you know
That I think about you in every single way

You’re more familiar to me, more and more each day
I cry in front of you, and it’s very necessary, babe
I will care about you, in every way I can

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